Preacher Mom Reflections

🕊️ Purpose

To help women in ministry or leadership understand how to walk faithfully when they feel both called by God and conflicted by Scripture.

The Honest Confession

“I have to tell you something that may sound strange: I’m a woman pastor… who doesn’t believe women should be pastors. I didn’t chase this title, I actually fought it, until I felt God tell me to allow Him to work. I didn’t dream of being in Church leadership, I actually thought this position was administrative when I applied. I asked when I got to meet the other Pastor; they told me there wasn’t one. My entire body almost melted. This Church was beautiful, I felt called to fly hundreds of miles across the country to provide a sermon. What was I going to say, “I don’t believe in that?” Well, my husband’s first response was, “Okay.” He knew I struggled with this, but he responded, “okay.” How could I be something that I didn’t believe in? It’s like the little kid who doesn’t believe in unicorns, but the parent brings one home as a pet. I can’t deny that there is a unicorn in the house no matter how much I know they can’t exist! The child would probably try to look for mechanical parts, look for glue, try to make sense of it. That’s what I did, but when I searched, I just kept finding God’s grace. It doesn’t make sense, and I can’t make up the feeling. For those of you women looking at me like, “How could you?” I get it, I’ve asked myself the same thing. I have not relied on the New Testament to give me guidance, because I don’t believe in changing scripture just because it “doesn’t fit.” I went to Deborah, which I will talk more about later, but…I just said ‘yes’ when God kept opening doors and putting His Word in my mouth. I’ve spent years wrestling with that tension — between conviction and calling.And I’ve learned that obedience isn’t always comfortable, but it’s always holy.”

“Some of you may be in a similar place. You didn’t ask for this. You’re just trying to be faithful. So how do we live in that tension without losing peace or purpose?” I want to pray for each of you that you see the beauty in the call, even when it doesn’t make sense.

God’s Call Doesn’t Always Fit Human Categories

Scripture: Judges 4:4–9 (NKJV)

Deborah didn’t ask to lead — she obeyed when no one else would. She was a wife, a prophetess, and a judge — not because she wanted power,
but because the people needed truth, and God found her willing.

God’s calling is not about gender, position, or recognition. It’s about willingness when others hesitate.

“I’m not here to prove I can — I’m here because I couldn’t say no to Him.”

 God Honors the Wrestle, Not the Resume

Scripture: Exodus 4:10–13

Moses argued with God about his call. So did Jeremiah, Jonah, and Mary. They all said some version of, “Lord, are You sure?” When you wrestle with calling, it doesn’t disqualify you — it deepens you. Wrestling means you take God seriously enough to want to get it right. A pearl is formed when an oyster wrestles with irritation — layer by layer, that pain becomes beauty. Your tension might be the very thing that produces purity in your calling.

Submission Is Still the Strongest Form of Leadership

Scripture: Luke 1:38

“Behold the maidservant of the Lord! Let it be to me according to your word.” Mary didn’t understand how she could carry what God promised —
but she said yes anyway. You can serve with authority and humility. You can lead under the Word while being led by the Spirit. That’s not compromise — that’s Christlikeness. You don’t have to be right about everything to be righteous in obedience. Stay surrendered, stay teachable, stay under the covering of Scripture.

Fruit Confirms the Father’s Hand

Scripture: Matthew 7:16

“You will know them by their fruits.” If your ministry produces repentance, restoration, and unity — then God’s hand is evident, even when others don’t understand it. “The Spirit never contradicts the Word, but He often confounds our expectations.” Let the fruit speak louder than your title.

You Are a Steward, Not a Symbol

Don’t carry the weight of representing “all women in ministry.” When I left my last church to pursue the calling, many women came up and said how proud they were, and how they knew women could do it, but it made me feel weary. It made me not want to tell people about the calling because I didn’t want to be a symbol for women, I wanted to be a symbol of being bold and walking in God’s call, no matter what it looked like. I didn’t want women or young girl to look up to me; I wanted God to say, “Well done.” You are not a theological argument — you are a servant of the living God. You’re not trying to rewrite Scripture. You’re just refusing to ignore the Spirit. When your posture is humility, God can trust you with influence.

Closing — The Peace in the Paradox

Scripture: 1 Corinthians 15:10

“By the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me was not in vain.” “I may not have all the categories figured out, but I know the grace that called me, the Word that sustains me, and the fruit that confirms me.” So walk in that peace — not as a protestor, not as a performer,
but as a partner in the Gospel, fully surrendered to His will. He can call you out at any time. He can replace you with a man or you will always be in this position, surrender to God’s call and remind the men around you that they are to lead in humility. They are to protect and serve. Remind the women that their voice is important, but it must be grounded in the word and not feelings! Your call is from God not humans. Act like it!

Closing Prayer

Lord, thank You for calling us — even when we don’t fit the mold. Forgive us for the times we’ve doubted or defended when we should have simply trusted. Let our lives be marked by obedience, humility, and fruitfulness. Teach us to lead with gentleness, speak with grace, and walk in the peace of knowing that we are Yours. In Jesus’ name, Amen.